by: Mike G.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 21:25:32 +0000

Beth,If I may.Thank you for shareing this with us. My condolence on the lose of your first husband,I hope that things are much better the second time around.
The reason I say this is that unlike you My spouse did not take her life,she just divorced me. I can relate to the susicideal feeling though.I have been fighting this since I was in the military in 1971. I was told that I was manic-depressive while in the service.My first marriage was filled with abuse that I handed out.Even though I was fighting with my wife and being both verbaly and sometimes physically abusive,my biggest problem was the person whom I had become.I was self medicating by drinking a lot more that I care to admit.Been in and out of the AA soberity thing way too many times. By getting theropy I have been able to keep the thought of offing my self at bay.I even have been able to maintain a great relationship with my second Wife.We have been married 27 years this year.I struggle with my self still,just trying to keep me going is a battle.I know that it would be so easy to kill myself,but that what about the shattered peices that I would leave behind? How could I justify that.
I’m sorry if I ramble some,it just how my thought work.
The best thing that I can say is this,I’m sober 16 1/2 years,I’m greatful to have My Celestine for the27 years that we have together,I’m greatful to be 55 this year.
God Bless you for your story.Mike G.

by: M.R. Gale

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 16:21:10 +0000

You were able to capture the push-pull of an abusive relationship. Somehow society blames the victim for not leaving but there is so much more to it than just walking out. I am so glad that you have found a better place to be and that you survived this. So many women in this situation do not.

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