The Weight of Water
“He kissed me underwater, and later, he told me that I was beautiful, even at 220 pounds.”
New York | July 2005 to August 2006 | By TIEGEN KOSIAK
Tags: dating, eating disorders
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Il Ne Savait Pas Que C’était Ma Première Fois“It was strange, and much simpler than I expected, and larger than I expected, and painful and difficult, and not very seamless.” #2: Insouciance“That summer, I got stoned a lot, took a much younger lover, ate decadently, and read dozens of novels.” Disability“When I was 22 years old, I killed an 8-year-old kid in a car accident. After that, many things changed.” Give Peas a Chance“I should have sent him home, but somehow, we got into a conversation, and I forgot that he was a half-naked stranger.” My Online Boyfriend“One day, out of sheer boredom, I got to looking up people from my past.” Winning and Losing“We lay naked on the couch, floor, bed, table, wherever is new and can’t judge our past actions.” Don’t Forget Cole Porter“He didn’t have any idea how he’d recognize the real thing if it ever crossed his path. Until he saw her. She said yes to dancing, and they swerved together like two ribbons unfurling, winding their collective long legs in natural accord.” | Years later, even after the doctors muttered the word “incurable,” he still remembered Cole Porter. Stalking Nick“I tried to stop, but I’m doing it again. I’m all about the search and destroy. Not so much on the destroy, but very big on the search. You can run, but you can’t hide. That’s my middle name.” | After 20 years, she doesn’t even know what Nick looks like anymore. But the search continues. Insouciance“That summer, I got stoned a lot, took a much younger lover, ate decadently, and read dozens of novels. I spent the time backpedaling from adulthood. It was a summer of pure and unapologetic insouciance.” | Perhaps the bigger confession: It was also the first time in her 29 years she’d lived by her rules alone.  |
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